I watched a movie the other day and a word kept being said on repeat, "moment". There are so many cliche phrases having to do with this word that it really has never been my favorite. Hence, (drumroll please) "aannnd now, for the MOMENT of truth!" Or the cheesy, "life isnt a matter of milestones, it is a matter of moments". You get the point. I used to think that the word is a bit overused. Moment...blah blah blah.
So, I had this epiphany when I heard this word. And its probably because God knows I have quite a few hard days being a mom. I'm probably the most emotional mother there is. I told my husband I don't want anymore children because it is too hard watching the little one get a shot. The exhaustion. Right now we are going through 4 month sleep regression. My traumatic C-Section of a birth. And to be honest, I am faced with boredom...you can only talk so much to a baby.
Anyways, back to this blessing of an epiphany...the word moment has a another word in it...mom. When I discovered this profound realization, this boring word became something else. It sparked something in my mind. It is not just a boring moment, now it is a MOMent. I like this word now. No, I don't just like it. I LOVE it. I REALLY REALLY LOVE IT. You know that quote, "some of life's greatest treasures call me mom?" I now like to think of it as, "my greatest treasure gives me MOMents."
So, I started a MOMent journal. Every month, I type up the MOMents I have experienced. Like how the babe had his first smile, when he started discovering that crying makes it so he gets picked up from tummy time, his first laugh, how it is a blessing he doesn't suck a Binky and just sucks his fingers (he never looses them), I changed 10 poopy diapers in one day and I'm grateful they don't smell yet, etc.
Sometimes these MOMents consist of things I learn about myself. For instance, "motherhood is a beautiful trial of patience." Or "I need to learn to still think I am beautiful when I don't shower for 3 days straight." I am even learning that with having a baby, I have to remind my husband to ask me out on dates...there are things that he needs to remind me about, like to shower. (Call me gross, but that is what motherhood does you). When you have a baby, you are both so preoccupied with this tiny human life, that you sometimes forget about your spouse.
Other MOMents are when I call my own mother and tell her how amazing she is for putting up with my siblings and me. Yeah, I still don't know how all you mothers of multiple children do it. Literally, I would go insane. I feel like I'm going insane with just one baby. But, one thing I do know is when I take the time to write down all the MOMents I go through each day, it helps me look at the positive side of motherhood. It's a gift. I have traveled on my own pirate map and this is my treasure right now. My little man is the pot of gold at the end of my rainbow. OK, I'm getting sappy. But below are some of my MOMents.
^^Hanging out with my boyfriend at Fisherman's Warf in San Fran. It was cold and it didn't seem to bother him. He loved it.^^
^^First plane ride. I was one happy mama. He slept on the plane ride to California and on the plane ride home. He is a perfect baby teaching his imperfect mama how to be better.^^
^^Why go to church at 1:00PM? It is so hard. The babe will not nap when I'm walking the halls with him. He does nap when you lay him down in his crib and leave him be. So, church consisted of hanging out in the foyer while he slept.^^
^^Love my family. We go through some trials, but our little boy is our greatest blessing. He is our best friend and has brought quite a bit of healing from past scars. He gives us the strength to be the best version of ourselves.^^
-M
